Hectic life

such a long din update my blog.
it is the 4th months after entering 3rd year.
life is totally different compared to 1st and 2nd years.
there is no more SPOON-FEEDING !
everything needs to depend on urself,
no one care if u dont wan go to ward,
no one care if u dont wan study,
the life is just too FREE!
but
i am lost!
i'm still not able to update my new life yet!
life is totally suck........
it is the best time for me to experience what is so called "doc life"
too many things to learn ,
too many things to study ,
too many things to memorize.
it is not the time to learn up skills and knowledges,
but
it is also the best time to learn how to communicate and deal with patients.
patients :
sometimes they not only expect doc treat their illness but also their soul too....
as v know healthy people are not merely mean free of disease but at the same time also have a good mental aspect too.

too many things have happened in the past 4 months.
i hope
i'm able to blog it out soon or later.
@
having holiday now,
so
i think i should be able to update my blog more frequently?
hope so!

1st time

it is my 1st time to buy things from net.
i have a mix feeling.
happy and worry!
happy= because it is much more cheaper
worry = i scared i cant receive the items
no matter wat !
i hope to get the items as soon as possible!

i hope to open one more blog
but i scared i dont hv much time to blog it.
the blog will totally different from the previous.
it will mainly focus on my personal's views and opinions on certain topic
i am looking forward to it...
if i am more hardworking it will be created very soon.....

Going back to Kl

going back to kl ...
need to start doing my elective d.
but very boring
because i only need to interview patient on tuesday and friday
while i am free on the other days
and i dont know wat can i do?
haiz...
superduper boring la...
hope can finish it in 2 weeks time .
hui said wan go to HK
but
sure cant make it one.
going to find yue wen next week and will have a hair cut too.
my life is like a ship sailing in a big ocean without any light...
haiz...
no goal!
lost !
hope everything can back to normal very soon.
my biggest wish in tis holiday is to gain weight
i wan gain 10kg la
I WAN GAIN WEIGHT!!

蛋糕

今天，
做了chocolate cheese cake。
卖相不好，
以后会多多加强！

第一次做，
虽然是失败了，
但还是可以入口的！

原本,
应该是云石的形状，
但，
失败了！
变成了两层的形态。

I AM BACK

long time din update my blog.
cause was busing about my exam.
finally ,
exam is finished.
and
i am free now!!
frankly,
i dont like holiday,
especially is long long holiday.
nothing to do!
dont need to worry about the work
and
make me feel like useless.
my life becomes chaos.
too free
until making me to think nonsence!
tat's y i hate holiday.
some thoughts r just coming to my mind without my permission.
i dont wan it.
i feel like i am losing control of myself.
it makes me feel like i dont know who am i
and
wat i wan
i hate it.
i very very hate it!!!!

RESPONSIBILITY

haiz...

really no mood to study..

exam is ald around the corner d

but

i still no mood to study.

2 more weeks is my cornass d

i got lot of things waiting me to study

but i still no mood to study yet.

i am not a resposible person and yet a future doc.

i should study for the sake of exam o the sake of knowledge.

there are lot of things waiting me to know,

but

i am just study for the sake of exam.

i got the pass year que

so for me

i just concentrate in those famous topic and que

the rest i just read through it and will 4get it in just a few min later.

arg...

i know i should study for the sake to gain knowlegde not to pass the exam

but wat can i do now?

i am lacking of time

and yet i am lazy...

i am not a responsible person yet a bad future doc!

argh......

WAT I WANT?

sad?
down?
i dont know how to describe it.
mixed feeling.
just let it go,
but it still hurt!
i dont wan to think about it,
but it comes all the way by itself to find me.
wat should i do.
i keep telling myself,
wat i need to do now is just concentrate in my study,
but
when things come ,
it still hurt!
it is time to 4get it,
it is time to concentrate in my study again.
hope everything will back to normal again by 2molo!!
GOD Bless ME!!!

DONATION＋car wash

our medical society is going to sarawak sibu to do community service in tis june

so v need money and v need to raise fund.

there are 60 ppl joining tis programme.

v were divided in to 12 groups and went to different place to raise fund.

tat was a tough stuff.

my group went to SS1

ppl live there are extremely rich their house are super pretty

but

the more richer the more stingy

they just send their maid to ask us go away

without seeing us.

WTF!

just hope them to donate some to ask

RM 50 o RM 100

for them just like "drinking water"

even they give us RM 10 v also accept

for those who donate more than RM50

they can require us to wash car o do other stuffs.

but i am very dissapointed

they looked us like v r cheating them their money

i know outside there got so many cheater

and i can understand how they feel and y they act like tat

but

i still feel some insulting .

most of us r getting sunburn since v need to walk from house to house at 2 o 3 pm

SHIT!

but wat v get is very very little

i really hope those multi rich ppl can gv us some donation

50 o 100 for them r very easy only

even some of the plant in their r more than tat price la

but y they dont wan to help us..

tat wat v call MALAYSIAN

even the foreigner is much much kind than them

very tired when i am typing these

so sure got a lot of mistakes

pls 4get me...

going to raise fund again later at 7 am

tis time v r going to the place where rich rich ppl will go there jogging.

hope v can get as much donation as v can la

GAMBATEH!!!

time to improve my eng

i dont like to use eng to write blog
i hate it because
my eng is bad
that y sometime i cant really use eng to express my feeling.
friday was my surgical ward round.
like usual,
i went there without any preparation.
tis time the ward round was a bit different.
the doctor divided us into 3 small group and gave us 15 min to take history from a patient.
tis was the 1st time v done tat.
after that he asked us to present the case for him.
1st and the 2nd group was presented by ppl who r good in eng.
when came to 3rd good ,
it was presented by a malay gal ( eng is so so la)
maybe it was the 1st time of the malay gal
so she done a few grammar mistake in her conversation.
but
the doctor looked like very particular about it.
and
telling us it is better to improve our eng
cause if there is a external examiner ,
they may get frustrated and fail u.
sound a bit weird rite.
they fail u because u r bad in eng
not because of u r not good in knowledge o skills.
OMG!
that was the 1st time that came to my mind ,
i am not good in eng
especially is speaking.
i hardly use eng in my daily conversation
wat should i do?
suddenly envy those who r good in eng.
haiz...
need to start to improve my eng d...
no more broken eng
and
no more la lo ......

kepong's crab

今天去了kepong 吃螃蟹。。。
这是我第二次去吃了。
还满不错！

原本是坐外面的，
但，
天公不作美，
下了场大雨。
我个人最爱的一道菜
香脆的皮，
和滑滑的肉，
再加上辣椒。
就是赞！

脆皮鸡



超爱它的汁，
酸酸，
甜甜，
加上一点的辣味，
配上一个馒头。
放入口里，
让你回味无穷！

甘香螃蟹


咸蛋，
我个人不是很喜欢的食物。
这也是我有吃咸蛋的时候。
还好，不错！
但，
印象中，
kelana jaya 那儿的咸蛋比这儿的还美味多了，
但
价钱却是这儿的一倍！

咸蛋螃蟹

惨！

今天下午上了physiology的lab,
其中一项是帮朋友看眼球。
主要是看眼球里的血管，
看来看去，
我都看没有。
haiz。。。
只有惨一字来形容自己。

明知自己读书慢，
却还是那么的懒惰。
作了两个小时的笔记都读不完一份的note
不知还有多少的notes等着我。（因该有30 多份吧！）
真是不知死活！
因该早一点读书，
不要每次都要临时抱佛脚！
每次总会在心里告诉自己下次一定要改，
但每次还是回到从前一样。
自己太没定力和恒心吧！

对自己完全不知所措！
开始发现自己什么都不会，什么都不是！
可能有点太悲观吧！
但
你问我有什么优点？
我一个都答不出。
有些人认为我对自己要求高，
无可否认，
我对自己有一定的要求。
因为我认为没有要求就没有进步。
可以说大多数的压力都是我自己给自己的。
家人从不会给我压力！
写得有点长吧。
今天就到此停笔，
明天再来！

回来了！！！

好久没上来了！！
有太多的东西要分享，
但又不知从何说起。
开始喜欢去看他人的部落；
开始喜欢想东想西地；
开始不喜欢读书。。。。。。
我越来越不懂自己。
内心仿佛还住着另一个他
我：懦弱，胆小。
他：大胆，开放。
当我不再是我，又会是怎样的情景呢？


发现这个学期，
太放纵自己。
似乎玩过头！
堆积如山的notes
等着我去读。
但，
总是提不起劲来！
发现自己越来越不负责任
做什么事都是得过却过。。
有时觉得自己很不孝，
因为比起其他兄姐，
自己是太幸福，
想要什么，
妈妈总是会满足自己。
而，
自己能回报她就是把书读好！
每次回家，
总是会煮好吃，因为她知道我很挑食。
每次不管多忙，都想和我出外吃 。
但常常我都不领情和自己的朋友出去！
有时会不忍心，
但总是让她失望了！！！
不想写太多！！！
读书，读书！
是我现在最重要的事情。


亲情，爱情，友情都会变质；
但智慧会陪伴我们一生！

加油！努力！

wen's birthday!!!

yesterday was yue wen birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY stupid wen!!!
just yam cha wif her in tai zhi at SS2
no cake
maybe was too little ppl
it just like a normal yam cha
very normal.....
birthday?
what is birthday?
some like to celebrate wif a whole gang of ppl
some like to celebrate wif his o her beloved
no matter what
as long as u happy is more than enough!!!
birthday greeting...
is it the more u get the more popular u r?
for me some ppl greetings r very important
i will feel sad if i dont get it
the rest i dont care....
i just telling the truth....
live is very hard
especially v cant do what v wish to do!!!
GOOD NITE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY aunty wen
(maybe u more like tis name than the early one)
ALL the BEst and stay "young" la

merlin 看后感！！part 1

两天内，
把merlin season 1 and season 2 看完！
太多感触！
让我心烦。
那感觉，
又再一次向我袭来！
有太多太多的感触，
不知要从何说起
但
它们就一直环绕在我心中，
久久不能散去！
戏中，
国王为了得到一位王子，
而向魔法师求子！
但为达到万物平衡，
有一生就要有一死。
有了继承人；
但同时丧失了最爱的人！
从此，
国王下令，
杀了无数无辜的人和魔法师 ！
魔法=邪恶？
但
讽刺的时，
王子身边的仆人，
就是一位天生魔法师 ，
也就是这戏中的主人翁（merlin）
merlin 用了魔法一次又一次 的把王子救了！
魔法=善良？
戏中的故事不必我多说（自己去看）
想在这儿分享的是感触
不是戏的内容。
万物之中自有定略 ，
谁都不能打破！
想要，
自然要付出！
天底下没有白吃的午餐，
无论你是谁都一样！
国王
以为自己是谁？
好听点
称为my lord
难听点
称为 idiot
大家终归逃不出
生老病死!
只因你的过错；
你的懦弱，
就把莫无须有的罪名
枷锁在他人身上。
魔法是好是坏，
不是在于魔法本身；
而是在于使用者。
魔法好比权力，
用得好，
可以为人造福；
用不好，
只能为人带来灾难！
还有好多好多的感触，
将陆续写上来和大家分享！！

它又回来了！！

它，
又回来了！
像海浪一般，
一波波的，
向我冲来！


逃，
无处！


躲，
何方？


无助！
无奈！
只能傻傻
像个小孩
站在那儿
让它袭击！


痛，
莫名其妙的痛！
一次比一次地来得痛！

无聊之作

响，
电话响起来。
看，
熟悉的来电。
我，
却没有勇气。
按，
下那个键盘。

雨，
一直下个不停！
心，
一直烦躁不安！
想，
你美丽的笑容!
听，
你录的歌曲！

曾经的快乐，
如今只能变成回忆。

一个人心痛，
好过两人。
两个人相爱，
好过孤单一人。
你的心，
早已没有我；
只有他！

从今以后，
只能一个人，
独自吃饭，看戏，读书。
下雨时，
我的伞下，
不会再有你的身影！

恶魔与天使

恶魔与天使

每个人的心中都住着一位恶魔与天使

每一天，
每一小时，每一分钟，
每一秒，
他们都在开战！
鹿死谁手还是个未知数！
没有从未做过坏事的好人；
当然，也没有从未做过好事的坏人！
如果这世上没了坏人，
哪来的好人？
坏人和好人是这世上的平衡点.
谁没了谁都不行！
深信每一个人都怀着一颗善良和丑陋的心！