result

result for supplement was out..

result not too bad as i managed to get grade B.

should i happy with it?

YES

i should 

at least i passed my exam and still able to get a not so bad result..

NO

i should not happy with it

as it can push me more in my study and the future.

sometimes

the effort u put does not equal to the results

but

u still need to try

if u dont even gv urself a chance 

who else will gv u?

雨后的彩虹。。

好久没上来了！

最煎熬的日子总算过去了。

老天爷还是疼惜着我们。

2个多月的时间，

一点都不长，

但

却让我体会和学会了许多的东西；

也让我看开了许多的事情。

有很多事情如果不是你亲身体验过，

你永远都不懂。

生命的道路不会永远都是直。

有时候，

跌倒是为了可以在未来的道路上无忧无虑地奔跑！

流不完的泪。。。

第三天了，

泪还是流不完。。

当大家在开心时，

只有我独自在泪流。

我以为我很坚强

但

我一点都不坚强

我需要依靠

谁能给我？

没人能懂我的心情。。

以前我可能也不会懂

但

东西只有发生在你身上时，

你才能真正的去体会那种悲哀与痛苦。。。。

泪..

已经是第二天了!

情绪还是不能平静下来,

老天爷认为我的人生挫折还不够多吗?

这算是一种考验吗?

this is the worse nightmare in my life...

can i make it through

everyone keep telling me to be tough 

but i am not tough enough to go through tis all alone by myself...

i never feel so sad in my life

i just don know wat to do...

tear is still finding me every time i think about it

i don wan to think it

but it is like the scar in my heart and wont heal forever

i keep telling myself tis is the last chance i give to myself...

if i fail again in 2 months time i will quit 

i cant cope the pressure anymore 

it make me cant breath.......

想。。。

夜已深，

但我却不想入眠。

我好喜欢深夜；

没有白天的吵闹，

剩下的只有平静与安宁。

是深思的最佳时刻。

医学

说难不难；

说容易并不容易。

它需要不是聪明；

而是

毅力和努力。

只要你努力，

一切都不成问题。

很多人都认为

医生

是有钱的，

是万能的。

其实，

医生只不过是个名字比较好听而已。

好赚？

外头有很多的职业都比医生好赚。

打个比喻：

一个生意好的26岁小贩，

月入可能是一万。

但

一个26岁的医生，

只不过是个刚出茅庐的新人，

月入只不过是3，4 千。

一个不小心，

可能还要配上一条人命！

以前，

读书只是为了应付考试，

考完就可忘掉。

但

现在读书，

不只是为了应付考试而已，

还要面对人命。

个人认为读医学最需要的：

不是

聪明

而是心态！

因为

你不只需要对自己付责任；

他人的命也在你的手上。。

写这些不是为了什么，

而是为了给自己一个警惕！！

Too Much

there got tons of thing i wish to write

but,

i just too lazy to write them out.

they have been flowing in my brain for a long time
but 

every time when it comes to write it out
suddenly they all gone.

1st 

i would like to talk about JPA
omg 

the scene happens every year.

why?

13A miss the chance to continue study in oversea
while

8A has the chance to fly oversea to study?

reason given :

it does mean u got many A u will have the priority to study oversea.

WTF!!

if like tat 

y i need to study so hard?

there is no free lunch in the world.
ppl have been sacrificed a lot to get good results

but

now "someone" is trying to deny their hard works!

it is good to keep the top in our country 

but

ask ourselves 1st

do v capable to do so?  

v r not well prepare yet

but 

keep saying those ppl who have a better opportunity in oversea not love their country 

it is just like u wan to keep an eagle in a cage
do u think tat the tiny cage is enough for the eagle to show off its good flying skill?

no way....

 i had read an article about suggesting gov not to send ppl to go to oversea

somehow it makes sense

how many of them will back to M'sia?

how many of them will work for gov for the rest of their lives?

why don't use tat money to upgrade our own local Uni?

if our country got a world class Uni

u think ppl will still thinking of going oversea to study?

 

  

TIME TO WORK HARD

it is time to work hard after 1month honeymoon.

 still feel like no mood to study,

even have been rest for a long period.

sitting in front of desk with book opened,

but

few hours went

 still at the same page.

ish....

keep telling myself need to be more hardworking,

but 

at the end it still the same.

when day goesby 

and 

i become more older

i lost the interest to study.

 there are a lot of plans inside my mind

but when it comes to execute

i keep delaying them

no more excuses start from now....

hope everything can goes like plan!!

爱

最近很多人一直问:“有没有女朋友”？

连一向反对在求学时期谈恋爱的妈妈也一直在问。

一切都在无言中。。。。

什么是爱？

何谓爱情？

爱的定义又是什么？

好感？火花？激情？还是习惯？

如果连自己都不懂得爱自己，保护自己，珍惜自己；

哪有资格去谈爱，珍惜和呵护其他人呢？

女人心，海底针。

想在海底捞针，

需要的是勇气，天时，地利，人和与幸运。

缺了哪样都会让你失望空手而归。

自己总是缺了那一点点勇气。

没了勇力，接下来的一切都免谈。

对自己太没信心了！！！

要外貌，没外貌；

要身材，没身材；

要家世，没家世；

要头脑，没头脑；

要什么，没什么！！

想太多，顾虑太多，到头来只会是一场空！！！

但

自己还是不停的往里钻。。。

在乎

心痛，

因为我在乎；

不爽，

因为我在意。

在意这一份友情！

在乎这难得的友情！

如果不在意，

不在乎，

哪来的不爽和不满？

可能我们已没了共同的话题，

可能你已有了新的朋友，

可能是我自己认为向你述说过自己的秘密，

哪天你也会向我述说你的。

讲我八婆也好，什么也好。

但

如果你不想说

就不要说

何必

当着他人面前说：“因为有我在而不想说。”

结果

他人叫我走开。

心里的滋味是什么？

你懂吗？

难道

他们真的就和你就比较好吗？

哪你生日时，

为什么他们自己不去帮你买，

而是叫我呢？（就应为我有车？）

买了蛋糕还嫌难吃。

吃了又没看他们来问要给钱吗？

自己付了蛋糕钱还要被人嫌难吃。

你他妈的。。。

我还没这么有修养到不会生气。

不爽，不满；

因为我在乎这份友情。

多希望自己看开点。。。

到头来

气坏的还是自己！

有时

友情无须交得太深，

那就不会哪来的什么多的不满和不爽！

如果没了在乎哪来的不爽和不满

1st post in 2011

i am currently in surgical posting

tis is my 4th day in this new posting

yesterday was the 1st time having ward round with the doc

WTH!

20 students follow one doc?

omg!

normally due to patient privacy

when v want to examine the patient

v will close the curtain

but now i dont think v still need it

v r forming the wall around the patient bed

so why still scare other ppl will c the patient

even some of us cant even c wat was going on wif the patient

my doc is a soft spoken person

too soft until i cant hear wat was he talking about

i was just standing there for one and the half hour

yet learning nothing

shit!

wasted my time plus my legs was pain too

i din mean the doc is bad

actually the doc is very good and knowledgeable

but the class is too big plus his voice is too soft

i meet a new friend

his name called jason (if i not mistaken)

he is studying medic in russia

actually i dont know him much

but since he was sitting beside my during the lecture 

so v did do some chit chat

he dont know wat is long case and short case

omg

he is ald 4th year medical student 

yet he dont know wat is long case and short case

k never mind

since he is doing 6years course

so actually equal to our 3rd year 

after tat,

he told me tat in russia they wont have writting exam

mainly is oral exam

k 

then

they even dont have a proper ward teaching 

so 

i am wondering do they really learn a proper physical examination?

for ur information

there are a lot of complaints about russia graduated docs r not good

(i don know i just heard somebody mentioned it)

language barrier

so taking a good history from patient also is a big issue for them too

in russia the medic is a 6 years programme

so mainly they r just focus in theory part but not the clinical part

the problem is

as a doc u r not deal with book but a human

u cant deny that u must a basic knowledge

but at the end u r dealing with patient not the book

where do the informations in the book get from?

book r written based on author many years experiences dealing with patient

one of my prof said :

patient is the “life" book

u can learn a lot of things from seeing patient

each patient is ur teacher!

studying in russia got more advantages than studying in local?

but yet everyyear JPA still sending a lot of ppl study medic in russia

y dont they spend these money in updating our local uni?

haiz....

pls use brain a bit more

dont alw do something stupid things

that put ppl into dilemma

last time was claimed tat not enough doc

then allow so many medic school established in malaysia

so now

too many doc !!!