Tuesday, January 18, 2011

在乎

心痛,
因为我在乎;
不爽,
因为我在意。
在意这一份友情!
在乎这难得的友情!
如果不在意,
不在乎,
哪来的不爽和不满?
可能我们已没了共同的话题,
可能你已有了新的朋友,
可能是我自己认为向你述说过自己的秘密,
哪天你也会向我述说你的。
讲我八婆也好,什么也好。
如果你不想说
就不要说
何必
当着他人面前说:“因为有我在而不想说。”
结果
他人叫我走开。
心里的滋味是什么?
你懂吗?
难道
他们真的就和你就比较好吗?
哪你生日时,
为什么他们自己不去帮你买,
而是叫我呢?(就应为我有车?)
买了蛋糕还嫌难吃。
吃了又没看他们来问要给钱吗?
自己付了蛋糕钱还要被人嫌难吃。
你他妈的。。。
我还没这么有修养到不会生气。
不爽,不满;
因为我在乎这份友情。
多希望自己看开点。。。
到头来
气坏的还是自己!
有时
友情无须交得太深,
那就不会哪来的什么多的不满和不爽!

如果没了在乎哪来的不爽和不满

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

1st post in 2011

i am currently in surgical posting
tis is my 4th day in this new posting
yesterday was the 1st time having ward round with the doc
WTH!
20 students follow one doc?
omg!
normally due to patient privacy
when v want to examine the patient
v will close the curtain
but now i dont think v still need it
v r forming the wall around the patient bed
so why still scare other ppl will c the patient
even some of us cant even c wat was going on wif the patient
my doc is a soft spoken person
too soft until i cant hear wat was he talking about
i was just standing there for one and the half hour
yet learning nothing
shit!
wasted my time plus my legs was pain too
i din mean the doc is bad
actually the doc is very good and knowledgeable
but the class is too big plus his voice is too soft

i meet a new friend
his name called jason (if i not mistaken)
he is studying medic in russia
actually i dont know him much
but since he was sitting beside my during the lecture 
so v did do some chit chat
he dont know wat is long case and short case
omg
he is ald 4th year medical student 
yet he dont know wat is long case and short case
k never mind
since he is doing 6years course
so actually equal to our 3rd year 
after tat,
he told me tat in russia they wont have writting exam
mainly is oral exam
then
they even dont have a proper ward teaching 
so 
i am wondering do they really learn a proper physical examination?
for ur information
there are a lot of complaints about russia graduated docs r not good
(i don know i just heard somebody mentioned it)
language barrier
so taking a good history from patient also is a big issue for them too
in russia the medic is a 6 years programme
so mainly they r just focus in theory part but not the clinical part
the problem is
as a doc u r not deal with book but a human
u cant deny that u must a basic knowledge
but at the end u r dealing with patient not the book
where do the informations in the book get from?
book r written based on author many years experiences dealing with patient
one of my prof said :
patient is the “life" book
u can learn a lot of things from seeing patient
each patient is ur teacher!
studying in russia got more advantages than studying in local?
but yet everyyear JPA still sending a lot of ppl study medic in russia
y dont they spend these money in updating our local uni?
haiz....
pls use brain a bit more
dont alw do something stupid things
that put ppl into dilemma
last time was claimed tat not enough doc
then allow so many medic school established in malaysia
so now
too many doc !!!