TIME TO WORK HARD

it is time to work hard after 1month honeymoon.

 still feel like no mood to study,

even have been rest for a long period.

sitting in front of desk with book opened,

but

few hours went

 still at the same page.

ish....

keep telling myself need to be more hardworking,

but 

at the end it still the same.

when day goesby 

and 

i become more older

i lost the interest to study.

 there are a lot of plans inside my mind

but when it comes to execute

i keep delaying them

no more excuses start from now....

hope everything can goes like plan!!

爱

最近很多人一直问:“有没有女朋友”？

连一向反对在求学时期谈恋爱的妈妈也一直在问。

一切都在无言中。。。。

什么是爱？

何谓爱情？

爱的定义又是什么？

好感？火花？激情？还是习惯？

如果连自己都不懂得爱自己，保护自己，珍惜自己；

哪有资格去谈爱，珍惜和呵护其他人呢？

女人心，海底针。

想在海底捞针，

需要的是勇气，天时，地利，人和与幸运。

缺了哪样都会让你失望空手而归。

自己总是缺了那一点点勇气。

没了勇力，接下来的一切都免谈。

对自己太没信心了！！！

要外貌，没外貌；

要身材，没身材；

要家世，没家世；

要头脑，没头脑；

要什么，没什么！！

想太多，顾虑太多，到头来只会是一场空！！！

但

自己还是不停的往里钻。。。

在乎

心痛，

因为我在乎；

不爽，

因为我在意。

在意这一份友情！

在乎这难得的友情！

如果不在意，

不在乎，

哪来的不爽和不满？

可能我们已没了共同的话题，

可能你已有了新的朋友，

可能是我自己认为向你述说过自己的秘密，

哪天你也会向我述说你的。

讲我八婆也好，什么也好。

但

如果你不想说

就不要说

何必

当着他人面前说：“因为有我在而不想说。”

结果

他人叫我走开。

心里的滋味是什么？

你懂吗？

难道

他们真的就和你就比较好吗？

哪你生日时，

为什么他们自己不去帮你买，

而是叫我呢？（就应为我有车？）

买了蛋糕还嫌难吃。

吃了又没看他们来问要给钱吗？

自己付了蛋糕钱还要被人嫌难吃。

你他妈的。。。

我还没这么有修养到不会生气。

不爽，不满；

因为我在乎这份友情。

多希望自己看开点。。。

到头来

气坏的还是自己！

有时

友情无须交得太深，

那就不会哪来的什么多的不满和不爽！

如果没了在乎哪来的不爽和不满

1st post in 2011

i am currently in surgical posting

tis is my 4th day in this new posting

yesterday was the 1st time having ward round with the doc

WTH!

20 students follow one doc?

omg!

normally due to patient privacy

when v want to examine the patient

v will close the curtain

but now i dont think v still need it

v r forming the wall around the patient bed

so why still scare other ppl will c the patient

even some of us cant even c wat was going on wif the patient

my doc is a soft spoken person

too soft until i cant hear wat was he talking about

i was just standing there for one and the half hour

yet learning nothing

shit!

wasted my time plus my legs was pain too

i din mean the doc is bad

actually the doc is very good and knowledgeable

but the class is too big plus his voice is too soft

i meet a new friend

his name called jason (if i not mistaken)

he is studying medic in russia

actually i dont know him much

but since he was sitting beside my during the lecture 

so v did do some chit chat

he dont know wat is long case and short case

omg

he is ald 4th year medical student 

yet he dont know wat is long case and short case

k never mind

since he is doing 6years course

so actually equal to our 3rd year 

after tat,

he told me tat in russia they wont have writting exam

mainly is oral exam

k 

then

they even dont have a proper ward teaching 

so 

i am wondering do they really learn a proper physical examination?

for ur information

there are a lot of complaints about russia graduated docs r not good

(i don know i just heard somebody mentioned it)

language barrier

so taking a good history from patient also is a big issue for them too

in russia the medic is a 6 years programme

so mainly they r just focus in theory part but not the clinical part

the problem is

as a doc u r not deal with book but a human

u cant deny that u must a basic knowledge

but at the end u r dealing with patient not the book

where do the informations in the book get from?

book r written based on author many years experiences dealing with patient

one of my prof said :

patient is the “life" book

u can learn a lot of things from seeing patient

each patient is ur teacher!

studying in russia got more advantages than studying in local?

but yet everyyear JPA still sending a lot of ppl study medic in russia

y dont they spend these money in updating our local uni?

haiz....

pls use brain a bit more

dont alw do something stupid things

that put ppl into dilemma

last time was claimed tat not enough doc

then allow so many medic school established in malaysia

so now

too many doc !!!

Hectic life

such a long din update my blog.
it is the 4th months after entering 3rd year.
life is totally different compared to 1st and 2nd years.
there is no more SPOON-FEEDING !
everything needs to depend on urself,
no one care if u dont wan go to ward,
no one care if u dont wan study,
the life is just too FREE!
but
i am lost!
i'm still not able to update my new life yet!
life is totally suck........
it is the best time for me to experience what is so called "doc life"
too many things to learn ,
too many things to study ,
too many things to memorize.
it is not the time to learn up skills and knowledges,
but
it is also the best time to learn how to communicate and deal with patients.
patients :
sometimes they not only expect doc treat their illness but also their soul too....
as v know healthy people are not merely mean free of disease but at the same time also have a good mental aspect too.

too many things have happened in the past 4 months.
i hope
i'm able to blog it out soon or later.
@
having holiday now,
so
i think i should be able to update my blog more frequently?
hope so!

1st time

it is my 1st time to buy things from net.
i have a mix feeling.
happy and worry!
happy= because it is much more cheaper
worry = i scared i cant receive the items
no matter wat !
i hope to get the items as soon as possible!

i hope to open one more blog
but i scared i dont hv much time to blog it.
the blog will totally different from the previous.
it will mainly focus on my personal's views and opinions on certain topic
i am looking forward to it...
if i am more hardworking it will be created very soon.....

Going back to Kl

going back to kl ...
need to start doing my elective d.
but very boring
because i only need to interview patient on tuesday and friday
while i am free on the other days
and i dont know wat can i do?
haiz...
superduper boring la...
hope can finish it in 2 weeks time .
hui said wan go to HK
but
sure cant make it one.
going to find yue wen next week and will have a hair cut too.
my life is like a ship sailing in a big ocean without any light...
haiz...
no goal!
lost !
hope everything can back to normal very soon.
my biggest wish in tis holiday is to gain weight
i wan gain 10kg la
I WAN GAIN WEIGHT!!